From the time I was a little boy, I’ve had an unquenchable curiosity about God, the universe and my role in the grand scheme of things. But my thirst for answers only seemed to leave more questions floating around in my head than answers – so many, in fact, that after a while my head began to hurt!
In my late twenties/early thirties (after I became somewhat more aware of what I thought I might be), I felt I was ready to take all my big questions deeper by using a variety of meditation techniques. This I did, but to no avail; no satisfactory answers came to me.
One morning (by this time I was in my late thirties), I was doing what I’d done many, many times before – something I called my rabbit hole meditation. That’s where I’d go deeper and deeper into the what seemed like a labyrinth, and continually check to see if there was an undiscovered treasure behind any of the closed doors I came across.
Lo and behold, on that day – the day I finally got the answer I was looking for – my meditation went something like this:
“Hmmm…I wonder if any of those answers I’m looking for lie behind this door?” But when I opened it, nothing.
On to the next one I went. “Hmmm…I wonder if I’ll find it behind this door?” Nothing there.
On to the next one I went, over and over again. Still, I found nothing.
Then, just as I extended my hand towards the next door, something dawned on me.
“All this time, I haven’t changed my routine one bit. Maybe I should do something different, but what? Hey, I know!”
So, instead of reaching for the doorknob, I decided to knock on the door itself. But just before I did, doubt crept in, “How am I going to get an answer that way? Oh well, I might as well try it.”
And then, at my touch, the door turned to gold and opened on its own! I started to freak out and jump up and down like a kid in a candy store. But what I saw inside was – nothing!
“I was so hoping that this door would be the one! After all these years of searching, how can this be? I give up!” The very next moment, “it” happened.
A small, but infinitely wise Voice said to me, “Keith, every door you’ve ever opened has held your answer.”
“How is that? They all had nothing for me.” I moaned.
“Yes, you are correct, My Friend! Nothing.”
“But how can “nothing” be the answer?”
“Because it is!”
“Then tell me,” I asked sarcastically, “what do I do with nothing and how can no answer help me in my life?”
“Keith, ask me that question again.”
“How can no answer help me with my life?”
“Ask again.” said the Voice.
“Do you want me to beg?”
“No, just ask once more.”
“Maybe you’re just not capable of providing me with an answer!” I said in utter frustration.
“I am very capable,” said the patient Wisdom.
”But you still haven’t given me anything!”
“Yes, I have, Keith.”
“No, you’ve given me no answer at all.”
“Now you’ve got it!”
“Got what? The answer? How can no answer be the answer? Oh, my God, that’s it! There are no answers!”
“Keith, there are no answers. Questions are designed to create a search, which really just puts you in a position to receive the truth of who you are, and who you are is Infinite Potential. If you need an answer to feel complete, then I will provide you with one – your life is what you make of it. Now go and live your best life!”
After this story, you must be wondering what kind of questions had I been asking myself all those years. Here are the four questions that helped my life unfold:
“Where did I come from?”
You came from God and one day you shall consciously return. Even though you appear to be “here,” a part of you (your Higher Self) is still “there,” co-orchestrating your life. But for you to create your best life, you have to go within and figure what you need to do to be “in the spirit” all the time.
“Why am I here?”
When I was told in my meditation that there were no answers to anything, I understood that the only reason I’m “here” is to live the best life possible and, to do that, I must continue to live my passion. There can be no other reason. If God is Love, then it makes sense to me that when I do what I love, I’m walking the path. I was fortunate to come to this realization early on in my adult life.
“Who am I?”
This question, which is probably the biggest one in the batch, took me a while to “get” and accept. Let’s examine it closely.
If you come from God and will one day consciously return, who are you now? If God is the beginning and the end and you’re in the middle of all that, who are you? If God is omnipresent (present in all places at all times), who are you? Point to yourself. Point to God. At your essence, that is (the truth of) Who you are.
I know this kind of talk may cause some people to back away in fear. That’s because they don’t understand the Laws of the Spirit and the Laws of Physics. It can be tough sometimes for people to see their own Greatness. One has to come to that realization on his or her own. What helped me was to see that all God really is, is the Collective Love that created everything and I am not separate from that. If I were, I could not exist.
“Where am I going?”
Wherever you want! The choices are infinite. But if you ever want to “get” where you are wanting to go, you must first understand where you come from, why are you here and who you are. Only then will you be prepared to get where you are going!.